今天，伤心欲绝，悲痛万分的一天。。。
早上，问妈妈:MIiMi，倪何唔何意卑返过电话藕？他冷冷地答了我一句：If u duno how 2 control urself n ur hp so no phone 4 u in the rst of ur life...not even in the future...冷冷的一句话，抛下我冷冷的身体在冷冷地流血。。。
下午，给bluetooth讲了几句，虽然是笑着骂。。。但一字一句依然刺进我的心头
下课：爱人问我：巡察员，剪了头发啊?我答：哦，你又懂？他说：当然啦，我每天都在注意你嘛。拜拜，爱死你。然后她就嘟起嘴muackz一声就走了，心，仿佛找到了一点点的精神支柱。可是，上英文，yiying跟我讲了一件事，而且还是跟那个8婆有关（哪个我最恨得人莫过于你曾经最爱的人）伤心到，一刀刺进去也没有那般的痛。。。放学够伤心啦。。。回到家‘埋’在方内部想出来，选择逃避。结果爸爸，催我下楼吃饭。下到楼。给他骂:'在上面酱久，掉进马桶还是给浴缸的水淹死了？’又一把刀插进心头。。。吃饭，平时都是爸爸帮我挑鱼骨的，今天他水边帮我借鸡块若就算，一大堆骨等我自己挑...有一把刀。。。去补习，在车看家好月圆，Bosco出现了，天生一对的钟嘉欣和林峰即将被Bosco拆散了，我的林峰。。。相爱的总不能在一起吗？有一把刀。。。到了补习，算啦，反正都不开心了老半天。。。不如放纵自己，疯狂一下也不错，结果决定疯狂到底，不理老师的责骂，疯狂为主，很不小心看到那两个人一起来补习，又一把刀，可是已经习惯了，也不去在乎了，继续疯狂，使命疯狂，不停疯狂，疯狂了再疯狂。。心已经

NOWADAYS!!~~

ONCE UPON A TIME!!~~~~

PHOTO btween us had broken,memories btwn us had limited til tis stage n my heart hd juz beaten 4 u til tis second...T_T...

Refused 2 control my sadness...LUCKILY din burst into tears in such a deep night or i'm goin' 2 wake my whole family....my tears rowling beneath my eyes..hestitating whether shall it drop or not..at last the tear's decision is DROP..it dropped down n....FORMED CRYING...a CRYING ME occur..FINALLY...

Spent 1 whole night viewing ur FB profile...viewing at av older posts,av post,av status,av comment view it one by one... til finish VIEWING the WHOLE profile til it mentioed NON OLDER POST SHOWN!!ALMOST VIEW TIL 4.00A.M....stil haf english tt,drawing class n ballet the next day...PANDA EYES oso deep til nose jor(juz kidding)

I realized tat u reali LIKE lcy a LOT!!i cant figure out whether izit stil the same now or isin't ...i DUNO..only u wil noe...but i can make sure tat u reali LIKE her A LOT LAST TIME>>now...duno...

ur status:[希望今年的生日我们俩能一起度过。。。]真的被感动到了，可惜不是对我说。。。Duno y tis status concerned me remember the most deeply..DUNO Y...

n sumore FB question:[wat can make u happy]i'm not sure jack or leo kelvin answer tis but the answer is[call yehhang kiss him]then u commented lcy oso can de¬¬¬¬¬¬¬

although i noe it isn't ur fault ...i dint blame on u 4 anything ...i reali didn't...all these were PAST TENSE(regarding2wat u told me)(i duno whether u cheated my feeling or not)(but i had chosen2trust u bcuz i love you)>>>but my heart stil dropping tears///SADDING...my HEART HAD GONE SICK..SICK OF LOVE...my NERVOUS system had got problem with it..LOVE WIRE sot jor...til whole body system cant control n cry til LIKE A LOONY...like a MAD FELLOW¬¬¬

Who invent the word SAD???...i wana 2 blame on him/her..Y invented tis words[SAD]

I reali need some action or some words frm u tat can make me 100% trust on u....can touches my heart til i CRY...i reali NEED...but the problem is will u spend such a long time (like wat i did2u by viewing ur whole profile) 2 read my blog??tis is the problem....

U called me juz now:reali ontime...the moment i wana 2 post the status u called me...i'm wondering how can u read my mind?
It should b happy 4 me 2 recieving ur call at first i did but at last i failed...
wat u were talking were juz the 2 words...[ran hou,you zen yang]orelse jau say wats[wo bu xiang ting,ni bu yao jian]wat NUTS are these?can u talk these words 2 some1 u care?bsides u dun care him/her or u wont say these words but most unluckily u said it 2 ME!HEART BLANG~BLANG!BLANG~ALL BROKEN!!\
i told u i lost my DS...u said my room obviously is very messy...i told u yar..but actually i got sumthing2 blurt out but i dint dare~i wana2tell u NO MATTER how messy my room does,NO MATTER how much things i lost,the most important FACT is i will NVR lost 2 things n its the 2letter u wrote 2 me....i reali wana 2 tell u tis but bcuz of ur[ni fang jian luan bu shi wo de cuo hor]i reali dun wana 2 say jor..better dun say...
I prefer keep avthing i wana2tell u cuz ur[wo bu xiang ting,ni bu yao jiang]ruin my mood n make me dun wana2talk much 2 u jor~~~=(..T_T T_T///

MENTALLY or PHYSICALLY BRAINLESS

Wish 2 hold a HEART wif u 2gether...

HOPE tat could reali HUG u 1 day~~

HOPE we can be so LAM...n happy ever after~~

ALL these are jux wat i HOPE...which nvr could happen...

I cant figure out whether i'm PHYSICALLY or MENTALLY brainless but wat i can make sure is BECAUSE OF U~~~becuse of loving u~~because of missing u~~

I had became absolutely brainless

frm up 2 down,

frm top 2 bottom,

frm front 2 back,

frm right 2 left,

frm shoulder 2 ankle,

n the most important is FRM HAIR TO TOE(MY WHOLE BODY)!!!HAD BEEN BRAINLESS~~

I'm obviously definitely BRAINLESS when missing u~~

ZERO BRAIN~~bcuz of loving u~~

U ruin my life...so MUCH...It's all bcuz I LOVE YOU too much n too deep...

WHEN U HURTED ME N I FEEL LIKE BREAK

Sometimes,i reali think of...will it better 4 me 2 abolisdh LOVE frm my mind~abolish relationshipbtween boys n girls frm my mind...abolish the words 'DSTING'frm my mind...only think of FRENS~will i satisfied?
I noe i can't do it...n i wont satisfed with it...
its obviously IMPOSSIBLE 4 me 2stop loving HIM!!
STOP LOVING HIM??
NVR COULD BE!
No matter had we break or not...
No matter how deep u hurt me...
No matter how u 'fly'me when v break...
No matter how much sadness u bring 2me...
No matter how bad u ruin my life...
My answer will nvr change,it will be
IMPOSSIBLE 4me 2 stop loving him~

REGRET~!!

I reali regret tat how come i'm so diputs~last timme?after broke wif HIM(ex)...i deleted ALL post in my blog tat related 2 him...
how diputs,toidi n yrarc i am!SAYA INI BETUL BETUL TAK ADA OTAK
MENTALLY BRAINLESS ME!!!How can I deleted ALL POST related 2him~???ALL MEMORIES HAD ALREADY GONE~I will nvr repeat the same mistake in the future!!
ALL memories in my heart n brain...
ALL post and status in my blog in FB btween me n HIM...I will keep it4ever...
IL'HIM(V)

DA XIAO REN

Found sunthing interested...surf on it www.daxiaoren.com
it can release ur angryness...
If u dun mind being naive or childish...u can try on it... u may find it is much more better after'da xian ren'~!\
Although it doesnt works much but at least it help 2 cool u down A BIT!

Suddenly MISS my FREN A LOT!!!

Suddenly feel like FRENS is better than being COUPLE...

Suddenly feel like wanna 2 abolish u frm my mind,abolish LOVE from my mind...JUZ think of fren.i WILL BE satisfied...

=(....:(...X(...

Reali....SAD
EVERYTHING u DID 2day reali...make me sad til...HEART BROKEN
BROKE til nothing's gonna mend it back...
how can u treat me tis way??
i'm waiting u thr whereas u r sitting thr...chatting...so HAPPY.....
ZERO words for the whole day...NON even 1 words...DISSAPOINTED...
I'm reali fascinated by everythinbg u DID 2day....
FASCINATED...DISSAPOINTED...REALI HOPELESS 2 U...SAD TIL.....
HEART BROKEN

i love u more than i can say

Do u noe?i reali cant stop LOVING u....
stop loving u i rather DIE...
LOVE u 4ever...nvr could stop...NEVER NEVER....
LOve u more n more.....nvr end...

♥ ♥我爱你♥I LOVE U♥AKU CINTAI PADAMU♥aishiteru♥saranghaeyo♥jeta'ime

♥你什么时候能结束呢？

♥你什么时候会结束呢？答案是：没有答案。。因为我爱你已到了无法自拔，无药可就的地步了。。
可是你到底懂不懂。。♥你真的很难很辛苦。。。很很很辛苦。。。
1。我看到你拨电给我可是没有听到。。想打回去却又害怕你家人睡了。。害怕吵醒你家人//[只因为你没有手机] [也不能怪你因为不是你想的]

2。我和你在一起的日子都是提心吊胆过的。。你妈妈和她妈妈那么熟随时都可能会得知我们之间的关系我真的很怕你妈动了会发生任何恐怖的是。。[只因为你妈和她妈的问题]

3。你不能真真了解我要的是什么，我爱的是什么，我要得到的是什么，我喜欢什么，我享受什么。。你都不理解。。。你终说我们在补习没有话题。。。你懂什么是谈恋爱吗？？你又看过哪一对情侣是隔着那么远坐的？你每次说要去补习看我，要面对我。。可是你有吗？有时候甚至连一句话都没有说过..[你肯定会告诉我你害羞不然就是没有话题（听惯了）]

♥虽然这是我们感情中美中不足的地方，可是其他的浪漫史就已足够掩盖这些芝麻绿豆的小事了。。。我和你在一真的感受到被爱的温暖。。谢谢你为我付出了那么多//真的真的很爱你♥
我真的很怀念那天的♥十指紧扣♥但它永远都属于回忆包厢的。。不能再重演。。
真的很怀念。。。♥♥♥

7早8早。。。大给我跟我说依据早安。。连老婆都没叫就叫我早安（早点安息）
那么想我死吗？

我相信。。。
我全都相信。。。
相信你说的每一句。。
每一句我答应我可以我不会不信。。。
我全都相信相信你所的每一句。。。
[温岚：全都相信]

对不起让你误会以为我不相信你了///
我真的没有不相信你///昨天只是一气之下胡乱说说而已///
别误会我真的煤油不相信你更没有怪你。。。没有，真的一点也没有///

如果你真的累了不想再说了那就不必再解释了因为我早已经选择了[相信你]

不是我不信只是我有点吃醋。。难道你就不懂女生本性就是爱吃醋吗？或许时间真的可以改变一切。。。我们之间需要的是时间。。。爱情要有笑有泪有喜有悲有痛有恨。。。经得起吵架和时间的考验才能算得上是一段美满的爱情。。。我们现在这个状况或许会让我们的感情跨进一大步，所以不要太伤心，我相信这真爱是不会把我们分得开的。。。

没有了[你]。。我们又要怎样活下去呢？？
爱你已经曾了无法改变的事实////深深爱着你。。不需要理由。。。爱你///老公升升///

昨晚我一气之下骂了你那么多那么多。。。。
真的很对不起。。。。我只是一时之间气在心头。。。才很生气地骂了你一顿。。。
对不起。。。我真的不是有意要骂你的。。。
对不起我爱你。。。老公，宝贝。。。
对不起我爱你。。。老公，宝贝。。。
对不起我爱你。。。老公，老公。。。
老公。。。老公。。。老公。。。。老公。。。我真的很爱你。。。
现在是，待会儿是，今天是，明天是，后天是，永远是。。一辈子都是。。。
Without YOU my life is meaningless....]ILY...lougong....[U r my EVERYTHING]...

我觉得有些事情坦白了或许会更好。。。对我们彼此。。都比较好。。。
我一直以来都在怀疑你对我的爱。。。就因为你曾经爱过他很深很深很深///
我从来都没有想过你对我的爱是如此认真。。。如此真实。。。知道你告诉我面书的密码那一刻。。。我的心真的被你打动了。。。真的相信你对我的爱是真心的。。。
看了你面书和朋友的短讯过后更是感动到流泪。。。不是因为悲哀而流泪。。只因为。。我的心已经被你打动了。。。真得非常。。非常地感动。。
我不否认。。[曾经]我最爱的是林凯文。。。以前我们称对方为宝贝。。我答应我自己这一辈子。。都不会爱叫任何一个人宝贝因为我真真爱的宝贝只有他一个。。。可是现在不同了。。。
我真的很爱你。。。我可以为了你不活但却不能没了你。。。
对不起我爱你，，，[宝贝]///
5201314

I WONDER I CAN READ UR MIND.....T_T...555....
QUESTION:[DO U REALI LOVE ME WIF UR FULL HEART?]

ILY til i MAD
I tell u ILY...Can u hear?Do u noe?
May I noe ur ANSWER PLZ>>>>
VTHS..ILY....\
ME...LZQ...BORN ON 12 FEB 1997....swear ILVTHS more than i can say...more than he noe...
but[HIM]doesnt <3>
EVENTUALLY...wat i wanna 2 mention is...[HIS LOVE 2ME IS UNBELIEVABLE]

‎[世界上还有天理这两个字吗?有吗？？？谎言能隐瞒一辈子吗？？能吗？？选择坦诚有错吗？？有吗？？真相能大白吗？？能吗？？]T_T LIVING IN TIS WORLD IS TERRIBLE..T_T...ENDLESS TEAR...

Do u noe how much i <3>
Can u juz bhav well n dun hurt me anymore?PLZ>>>
I BEG U...
LOVING somebody hu's heart is thinking ANOTHER GIRL reali hurts a LOTZZZ>>>
Can U juz <3>
<3>
COULD U???
I dont noe when wil u realize the presence of tis blog but i'm desire n longing4 ur answer...NO MATTER how long...i wil...WAIT...
WHETER r v stil 2gether tat time...or have v bcome enemy. ...but i wil oso wait 4 ur answer....I reali LOVE u VERY MUCH....y cant u???

Y cant u juz tell the truth...
u noe i had bursted into tears 4 how long???u nvr noe it...bcuz u r cold-blooded...TERRIBLE....HUMAN....
Tell the truth izit reali so difficult?
U noe it urself wheter wat u told was true or false...U NOE IT URSELF....NOBODY could help u without telling the truth...
y cant u?JUZ!TELL!THE!TRUTH???
I wonder if i can read ur mind...
I hope u tell the truth...dun concerned me as well!!!!!PLZ>>>>

I reali....like 2day...enjoy it soooooo much...
he holded my hands....juz call me lao po...then staight away RAMPAS my hand...without my notice.....his shoulder...i like sleeping on it...reali LOVE 2day very mych...AN UNFORGETABLE DAY...our hands.... nvr seperate.....like our reationship will nvr end....

IzIt...reali DIFFICULT?

Izit...reaLi...DIFFICULT...
izit reaali difficult 4 u 2 juz hold my hands?y dun u do it????do u reali...love me?

I woNdEr...

I wonder HU?can tell me an EXACTLY answer!!!does he reali love me wif his true heart?
I WoNdEr...
does he playing wif my feelings?
i wOnDeR...
does he reali love me?
i WOndEr...
wil his parents realize our relationship?
these ARE WAT'S V WONDER!!!

I <3 u more than i can say...but u wil nvr noe it bcuz u duno the presence of tis blog at all....so i can rlease all my feeling here...write watever i like here....n most important is i can write all ur bad thins here without noticing u....tis is the most fuN enjoying of posting blog....post....
ARH!!I miss him lots...
TogeThEr Wif HiM...everYtHiNg hE brInGs mE wAs JuZ WORRIES....full of spamming by worries....worrry bout....will his parents realize our relationship....worry bout aill he leaving me?(he like xxx....)....worry bcuz he's shame not even dare2sit or chat or watelse(juz simple things tat fren could most probably do).....REALI so xing ku....being wif him!!!

:heart&

&heart;

Long Time....din update my blog jor....My BLOG has been OUT-DATED!!!
Last post,im stil wif TNCK...whereas now it wasn't anymore....
Now,engaged 2 Vincent Tan Huey Sheng!my DOGGY...<3

The newest n hotest movie Alice in the wonderland n wat u r looking at is my blog not movie so it should b NCK in my loving land!

我爱你

虽然说我爱你三个子很简单。。。。。可是对某些人或某些情况下。。。要挤出这三个字好比爬上天还要难！！！可是当一个人真心对你说我爱你这三个字时，你就要懂得珍惜因为千言万语中他选择了对你说这三个字。。。可想过他对你是多真心多人真吗。。。。XD~~~~XP~~~~

Miracle Feelng!!!

爱你，想你，你不知道就算了，但……你什么还要让我知道你对她的爱有多深...多深...原来你是多么爱她= =看着你写给她的每一段，每一句甜言蜜语……我的心是否淡了...想放弃你了？可是.....爱你，想你，你不知道就算了，但……你什么还要让我知道你对她的爱有多深...多深...原来你是多么爱她= =看着你写给她的每一段，每一句甜言蜜语……我的心是否淡了...想放弃你了？可是……我仍然爱着你，想着你，没有半点想放弃你的念头……可惜的是『你永远可能都不知道我喜欢过你』watever duno how 2 say....reali tired n bored!!!!!!!!!!

A news from STAR paper bout the SPM result!!!

PETALING JAYA: Strong family support and self-discipline seem to be the recipe for success for most of this year’s SPM top scorers.
Although Ashley Leow’s life has not been a bed of roses, she emerged as one of SMK (P) St George’s top scorers.
The Penang lass has always kept her spirits high despite her family not being able to provide the best for her.
Ecstatic: (From left) Yeoh, Leow and Chan showing off their results to principal Shariffah Afifah in Penang Thursday.
Leow, who scored 9 A+s, said her family was not well-off and there were times when she wished she had what her friends had.
“My mother is a housewife. My father got retrenched last year and is now helping a relative with his business.
“Sometimes I wish I could afford some nice things like what my friends had, but I didn’t let it get me down,” the bubbly 18-year-old said.
She said she did not expect to do so well, especially in Mathematics since it was her weakest subject.
Leow was also active in many co-curricular activities, namely judo, bowling and the Interact Club.
The Sukma 2008 bronze medal winner said her passion for judo helped instil discipline in her and taught her many of life’s lessons.
Fellow 9 A+s scorer Stephanie Chan said that although she, Leow and another top scorer Yeoh Jin Ming were not in the same class, they had discussions whenever they were not clear about something.
Yeoh said she was surprised when she scored 9A+s as she only started revising in the few months leading up to the exam.
“But it’s important to pay attention in class and to concentrate in your lessons,” she added.
Principal Shariffah Afifah Syed Abbas attributed the success of the school, one of the first 20 high performance schools in the country, to the students, teachers and parents.
In Ipoh, news of Hu May Khei being one of the country’s top SPM scorers did not come as a surprise to her principal Che Su Mahamud.
Che Su said Hu, of SMK Convent Taiping, had scored in all public examinations.
Hu is studying in Singapore now.
“She is a pleasant girl who is an all rounder,” Che Su added. In Malacca, Lai Yin Kwin, who attributed his top-scoring success to strong family support and self-discipline, is among the top 10 students in the country.
Lai, who is from Malacca High School and scored 9As, thanked his parents, in particular his mother Ng Gek Choo and two elder sisters who had also previously scored straight As in their SPM.
In Klang, it was an early birthday gift for Siti Aisyah Mohd Ramli as she emerged as one of the top scorers in Selangor.
Siti Aisyah, who is going to celebrate her 17th birthday on March 14, said she believed the key to her achievement was from sharing knowledge and helping others in their studies.

A news from STAR paper...!

PETALING JAYA: SPM top scorer Grace Kiew Sze-Ern (pic) has proven that students can excel in examinations without attending tuition classes.

“What we learn in school is enough. We could just do revision by ourselves at home,” said the SMK (P) Sri Aman student after collecting her results in school yesterday.
Kiew, 17, who obtained 15A+s, is the second top student in the country’s SPM 2009 results.
When asked what was her secret, she replied in jest: “Study hard and pray a lot.”
However, she admitted to crying the day before collecting her results due to pressure, and was relieved that she did so well.
Born in Warrington, Britain, and raised in Malaysia, Kiew was a principal cellist in her school’s orchestra.
She also speaks Japanese and a little bit of Korean.
Kiew is looking at options such as medicine and dentistry.
Principal Alainal Hasani Md Noor said she was very proud of her students’ achievement.
“It’s a gift from them to me,” said Alainal.
Another student, Siti Aqeela Shaik Mohamed, who obtained 10A+s, was in tears when she received her result slips from the principal.how GENG she is!!!

为爱而坚强

像是刺猬般坚强
伪装得勇敢不经意
让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分离时不觉得伤感
一片无声黑暗中的我，
却在心中大声呼喊！

我想我那么坚强
每个女孩其实都一样
渴望着爱情の好，
渴望被心爱的人拥抱，
全都是因为害怕让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强，
只不过是一而再地逞强。。。

一个曾经被两端爱情深深伤害过の女生，可知她会是多么害怕再失去以后的那份爱！她不敢在接受新の感情因为她害怕拥有他之后会再一次失去第三个他!!! 因此，这个女生的爱能再次属于第三个他吗， 会再次真真地找到这份爱の主人吗？找到了又会再次经历失去吗？到底谁可以给我一个答案呢？会吗? 她会再拥有第三个而且不会让她又再次伤了自己の心吗？第三个又会是谁呢？ 有人可以告诉我吗？

白色情人节又到了。。。我能和他一起同度过第二个情人节， 以后的情人节我又能和他一起过吗？这些对我而言都不重要，最重要的是现在の我能像一个装着满满の爱の天使,为他度过现在所拥有の情人节就是最幸福の事,因为每样东西都能买保险, 就是除了爱请永远都不会有永存の保障!

珍惜眼前所拥有の爱
幸福!勇敢!坚强地去爱！
别往后看让你受伤的人，
珍惜眼前人！